NOTE - It won't let me post in the relationships forum if this is where this should goThere is a girl that I feel like I really really love. I used to know her really well but things changed and I moved away. I came back to her school however, a few years later (last year) and I'm sure she was pleasantly surprised when I did because she said little things to me sometimes like how I coloured on her shirt with hilighter in grade 3 and it was funny and how we used to be the "cool people" and be friends. I, however, for some reason became very very shy and I couldn't talk to her at all. She was in some of my classes this year though and I think she knows I like her. Anyway, as of now, I've decided that ENOUGH IS ENOUGH and I decided to just give her a call and say "sorry for colouring on your shirt with hilighter =P" and seeing where it goes from there. This was yesterday -- I found myself pacing around my house EXTREMELY nervous about making the call. When I finally had the guts to do so however, nobody was home at her house. I tried twice yesterday and I got no answer. I then tried again this morning and still...no answer. I also added her on my MSN list and she added me back. I saw her online for 2 seconds 3 days ago when I added her and haven't seen her online since. I'm beginning to get scared now...it seems as though she added me and then blocked me right away. And why is no one picking up the phone at her house?! It's almost feels like she knows I'm going to call her and she doesn't want to talk to me. I know this is completely irrational however, since she would have absolutely no reason to dislike me and she even says hi and smiles at me sometimes (unless she knows that I like her and feels uncomfortable?!!!?!). I am feeling SO many things right now I don't know what to do. I was so nervous I threw up twice and I can't eat anything (my parents think I'm sick) and now I'm TWICE as nervous because I don't know what the fuck is going on!!!! It would BREAK MY HEART if my suspicions are confirmed. All I want to do is say ONE SENTENCE to her!!! So yeah, that's my current prediciment and I feel totally fucked up inside at the moment. I have to go throw up now so there's no time to separate this block of text into paragraphs O_O. anyone have any suggestions on what to DO?!!!!
SO nervous, don't know what to do - help please :(
You have anxiety problems, Tomatoes, and that's making you feel so bad. The things that you're worrying about are just the normal Hitches and Vexations that occur in real life - they don't have any meaning, but your anxiety gives them meaning they don't have. :frowning: