i dont know why im writing this but i meanim really at a low right nowevery time i start to feel confident about myself or a good opportunity comes my way i fuck it upim so insecure i can barely talk to peoplei hate myself and i hate my faceand i dont think i should be alone because ive tried to hurt myself a lot of times. sometimes its just punching myself in the face or scratching my wrists with a blade but im scared i might do something seriousi wish i had someone in my life i could really confide in but i dont. my mum doesnt want to hear about it and if she did shed just over react. my friends only freak out or over react. and the few people i have that really care about me i cant talk to properly because im so awkward and weird.anyway, i really dont know what to do anymore. if something doesnt come along and help me then i just dont knowsorry if this whole thing seemed stupid-max
Max do you think you're awkward or weird? If so why?
"This is not my life
It's just a fond farewell to a friend-"
Max, being awkward and weird is actually pretty normal. At least I assume it is - I certainly am.
I've always found you good to talk to.
If you need someone to talk to on MSN then I'm on quite often. I'll give you my e-mail by PM. I can probably relate very well to what you're going through. Talking about it and letting it all out is really helpful. I found these forums to be good, and a couple friends as well as my mom have proven to be great places to talk things like this over without worrying about what they'll think of me. Venting not only helps get it off your chest, but when you put things into words it often becomes more clear what your goals/problems really are if that makes any sense. By clarifying things for other people, you build these clear mental images from a mess of turmoil inside your head and that can help give direction.Do you have a punching bag or similarily punchable object? If so, I want you to hit that whenever you want to hurt yourself. If you want to scratch yourself, go over to that and swing at it. You do have the power to do that.
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sorry about this thread, i was just feeling really, really bad yesterday im fine though. that hasnt happened in a while but i feel perfectly okay now. so theres no problem. anyway, thank you all for the advice and kind words, but i would like this thread locked now if thats okay, since i feel fine.