Creepy feeling!

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I always have this creepy feeling that I will always be alone or end up alone in my life. I cant help it. I cant get rid of it. My past relationships, friendships, everything have always left me alone and broken hearted in the end. How can trust some one? How can I stop myself from feeling this? I have so far always been alone in my life, pretty comfortable with it too but, I wish I didnt have this odd feeling stuck in my head!

I have BPD, abandonment is a constant fear to me. But this feeling of being 100% sure I will end up alone is creepy.

PS: just venting out my emotions here.

People who aren't tragically killed together die alone. It's life.

People who aren't tragically killed together die alone. It's life
That's not what she meant.
She meant it more as - to have some one love her and be with her until death. Someone to grow old with and have kids with... to live and share her home with. That's what she meant (I think) if I'm wrong she can clarify.

@ Saya -
I have a fear that every one I know will turn against me. it's just a matter of time. That fear makes me try to keep everyone happy and give them what they want. It frustrates me when I can't figure out what they want. I know people come and go...and that's the point. When will they go?
I hope what Shannon and I have now will last (like my parents) but I fear maybe it wont.

Originally Posted By: *CR!*I hope what Shannon and I have now will last (like my parents) but I fear maybe it wont.Like anything a relationship is only as strong as the work you put into it. Don't get lazy and I think the two of you will be fine.Saya, this isn't meant to help, cause I know it won't. It's just a reminder. I think, just about everyone who isn't paired off feels that way yet most of those people do eventually meet up with someone they fall head over heels in love with and start a family.

You guys are right. But I had fallen head over heels in love twice now, both left me broken in the end. I dont know if I have it in me, if I fall in love again, I will always keep doubting when the person will turn away and leave me alone again. I may keep asking questions to make myself calm down "u wont leave me alone, will u?" that will be very annoying for tht person. I dont have a problem in being alone but this feeling I have, it started when my mom yelled at me "you will end up alone! forever!" when I told her I am leaving my ex and dont plan to look for some one to be with.

Obviously I knew what she meant. But my main statement still stands.An awful lot of people die "alone" There are huge numbers of Familys who just don't really care about each other, but stay together due to kids, or "It works." you know?

I don't think "it works" is such a bad reason. It means the family gets along together well enough. In situations like that, there may be no big displays of affection or caring, but that does not mean these are absent.Of course there are also families where the atmosphere is poisonous.

Being alone isn't all that bad, at least I don't think it would be.

I agree.