Ok so here is the deal. I am 18 and currently have what would be considered my first boyfriend. He is 21. Well anyway we have been dating for about 2 months now, and like the last 2 weeks I have been freaking out really bad, and I don't understand why I freak out so much. This isn't the first time that I have freaked out either. Before this guy there was 1 other and I got so freaked out I dumped him after about a week, but that was about 2 years ago.
So anyway I didn't start really freaking out until about 2 weeks ago. I am really attracted to this guy, hes really sweet, and just an all around nice guy. He pays for everything when we go out, sometimes he lets me pay, but I have to force him to. So why do I freak out so much?
One other thing, we havn't done anything sexually like as far as it has gone in making out. I know he wants to take it farther. He knows that I am a virgin and am not ready for sex yet, and he gets that but what he doesn't get is why when we are making out I wont let him touch me anywhere "down there". And I always push him away, but he always listens and never forces anything.
But anyway that I guess is the background. So why do I freak out so much when he tries to touch me, and why am I freaking out about being in a relationship with him, even though I really like him?