it's been 2 months since i turned 18 and nothing really has changed. it's not that nothing has changed that bothers me but, how everyone else is changing around me and it makes me jealous. i see friends (the 2 that i have)and peers grow up right in front of me and i feel proud yet envious. everyday i get up, go to school, each lunch alone, get threats from my ex (unlike her, i have moved on), sit at home alone, rinse and repeat.my parents try to be my friend but as soon as i treat them like one (with a little more respect) they literally say "don't treat me like your friends" which confuses the hell out of me and just irritates me cuz they won't leave me alone afterward. valentines day really killed my spirit yal... everyone had a good time, and i was scheduled to work because they all went to the high school dance.i see people partying, getting in relationships, and just plain enjoying life. i want that too...i try to make new friends but when i do, they are just friends in school and not anywhere else. i can't seem to make new friends in school. i sat alone and quiet everyday for the past 4 years and it's not because im shy. i just don't know what is wrong with me.plus i live a little bit out of town so i don't have much connection to anyone out of school.does anyone think that college will be any different? i already befriended a few future classmates but i don't see myself around outside school/work.
I don't feel like an adult
well in terms of you not feeling any older, that's usual with anything. like me, i don't feel much older than i was 3 years ago, not even last year, from 15, even though you would think that you would. i think that alot of it has to do with the media, and always seeing into the lives of people that way. you know? my friends that i still see from elementary and jr. high, they don't seem any older, either, even though they're several years older.
i pretty much do the same thing that you do, stay hole, don't talk to anyone outside of school, 'cept my best mate, and that's about it. I know how that can go with you parents too, my mom
s that way sometimes, too.
in terms of valentines day, that's pretty much just the luck of the draw, since you have a job. it's not one of those holidays we get to have off, even though it seems like we should, you know?
now even though you don't really do anything outside of school, that doesn't mean that you can't enjoy life. there's plenty of things that you can do, even if your not out with other people. just go shopping, see a movie, anything you like to do. and if you do want more, then go, look for it, and get it.
maybe that's just the way it is, the majority of my friends, they're just school friends, they don't come over, and i don't really go out with them, but they're still friends, right? and i live way outside the majority of the "school population" town, so i know how that feels too.
and, although I'm not there yet, of COURSE college will be different. there's usually even more people in college, and you will meet more people, and you meet people interested in what you are, since there will be lots of people in whatever your major or minor is.
don't worry to much about it, and just live your life the way you want, and it'll get better. :smile:
Hope this helped you, mate.
Nothing's perfect... The world's not perfect. But it's there for us, trying the best it can. That's what makes it so damn beautiful.
honestly, just try and enjoy the fact that you are 18, your an adult. if you want to, you can go buy cigarettes, you can gamble, you are now allowed to goto strip clubs, i just recently turned 18, and even though ive done all of that prior to 18, being 18 and doing it just adds so much more feeling to those acts.i knew ALOT of people who didnt get to see 18, and im proud that i was one of the lucky ones, none of my friends lived to even see 23, closest one passed 2-3 months prior to his birthday.life is amazing, every morning you wake up take a deep breath, and continue onwards. think about it, even the most insignificant superfluous acts that we do, we take for granted. do you know how hard your body has to work, how many muscles you use, the amount of brain receptors that react to the movements of your arm as you brush your teeth.honestly its quite amazing when you think about it, each individual person, creating there own future events and creating there own passion within there sole life.dont ask yourself, Why my life isnt like theirs, ask yourself, Why their life isnt like yours. there focused on so many other things, that in the long run MIGHT assist them, but typically will just create problems. what if one of those friends of yours just got with a girl, and she got pregnant. 18 is not a good age to start a family.none the less, these are just the words of an up and coming revolutionary hip hop artist. and not words of god, but with life comes responsibility, be glad that your not taking care of kids or stressing over drug addictions.be glad with what you have, and not with what you have not.
How can my love increase for her when my words lack immaculance?How can a boy grow to be a man when he’s fatherless?
College will be different. It's much bigger, with a lot more variation and a lot more tolerance, and people start not knowing many people and wanting to make new friends, so it's a fresh start for everyone.