I want to calculate my next move in life. This is what I want: I want to get away from my parents. I want to be out on my own. Ironically, I'm worried that I won't be able to handle it with my depression and generalized anxiety disorder. Another part of me says it will be good for me.
I am currently going to college. I am thinking that maybe I can transfer colleges to get away and live in the dorms. Money is a big problem for me though. I am broke. Can I move down there and use money from financial aid to my finance a frugal lifestyle until I get a job? It is very hard to get a job where I live. I wonder, though, if it might be cheaper to find an apartment off-campus and if it can be financed through financial aid...
The other option which I would hate to pick is to conform to my step dad's ideal lifestyle for me: Hurry up and find a job and contribute my family's lifestyle. This means living with two people who are constantly frustrated with me and it makes it that much harder for me to live. I could get a job and save up money to have something to fall back on and put up with mom and dad's shit for the summer and go back to school at the college I'm currently going to or transfer schools after the summer.
Any other good options to get away from this mess?!?
I don't know what this means but I found a great analogy for what is going on with my life: I'm just one big tangled up mess that needs to get untangled and sorted out. I need order.