POSSIBLY MY LAST NIGHT HERE

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I feel alot better now.. I talk to my friend for a while.. Thanks again guys :smile:

Anytime FaBMX. :smile:

It just pissed me off so much.. I hate when people are intenionally(SP?) cruel to animals just to teach them lessons or whatever.. I almost got my ass kicked by this couple.. cause i told this guys wife.. ( she was hurting it ) If you would fucking do that it would listen. She did'nt like it.. and her husband chases me throgu a park lot ( they were in a mini van.. i was on my BMX bike.. ) It just pisses me off.. Even tho im a hunter.. I don't want them in anyway to suffer.. If i'm unsure of the shot.. I WONT TAKE IT.. i have refused tons of shots for that very reason...

Cruelity towards animals it just wrong. This one time I was walking home and I saw this guy screaming at the dog throughing it out of the house. It was behind some bushes so i couldn't see what exactly was going on but my heart sunk and I felt so horrible. I wanted to call the police or something. Why have an animal if you are not going to care for and love it?

WOW.. I feel fucked now.. My sister basicly broke down tonight in front of me and my mom..and said she wanted to kill herself.. Nosey me.. listened in while my mom and sister were talking ( she is 12 ) .. and she said her only reason for living is her at and mom... and that basicly.. I'm just like my father... and she hates dad.. and this and that... I'm 'part of the problem' .. This is great.. My dad doesn't like me.. now my sister dosn't like me.. My mom just tolerates me i think.. Most of my other family dosn't like me.. This is great... I'm the reason the family has problems.. sigh ... I dont get good grades.. I get in trouble.. I do stupid shit.. I fail tests.. I barly make it through school.. Yeah.. I see why they have a problem with me.. Oh well.. Hopefully some weed tomorrow will make it all better.. Sadly.. I need drugs to stay happy.. How do i know some sense into my mom.. and MAKE her get my sister help.. She isn't going through this shit.. She dosn't deserve it... She gets good grades and shit.. I need to MAKE my mom some how get her help.. I dont give a fuck if i get help.. I can die.. and wont dent to much but her.. She has a future life.. college.. then some high payign career... I dont.. How can i get my mom to get her help... None of this bullshit of just talking to her.. I don't want her to solve her depression problems like how i attempt to.. with alcohol and drugs... and shit.. I dont care about me.. I can die.. SHE CANT... Give me some ideas...

Now there all not talking to me... GRRRRR

When your sister sees the problems between your dad and you she doesn't see hte facts she only sees the bickering which puts you on the same level with him. She tries to look up to you, but then just sees you fighting with your dad. She probably just assumes you are the same way as him because of those actions. Your sister truely cares about you, if you didn't she wouldn't have said what she did. What i would do it pull her aside and tell her you over heard her. Let her know that you love her and that your sorry for what you may have done. Tell her that you will try and improve your life and be a real brother she can look up to for now. Make sure she knows that its not going to be an easy street to ride but you'll try for her. All she wants is an older brother to love, and you do have the capabilty of being that person. Your sister doesn't need you to get good grades or anything, she just needs someone she can go talk to and that she can see trying so she has an example to follow. Let her know why you act the way you do at times. Explain the conflicts that you and your father have and I'm sure she will understand. If you can't have your parents because of the way they treat you try and make amends with her. If not for yourself than for her.

Well.. I thought about it.. I am like my father.. Short tempered.. So.. I guess I'm just like the problem?

You're not your father, FaBMX. And one thing that really hits me is how much you care for your sister's happiness, ahead even of your own. That tells me more about how good you are than anything else.Stupid_man's reply is absolutely right. And short temper is a problem, obviously, but it's one you can slowly improve. You are aware of it - that puts you well ahead of those who can't see their own faults.

AS ineligible said you have recognized your problem. This shows you that you are not like your father. Yes you have some qualities in common, but i'm sure we all could find something we have in common with a billy goat too.