Bored

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I had the family guy for ages, then took it away for the past couple of months, then today I had a naked old man for about an hour, then got rid of it cause Amanda asked me to. I thought it was funny, I stole it from some nudist forum and that was some guys avatar. Anyway, I don't think its depression, not fully anyway. I'm gonna go more for Ineligible's original suggestion (Christmas last year) that I may suffer from cyclothimia. I've read up on it a lot and nearly all the symptoms fit, except a few of them I have are milder than in the official dignosis stuff. Like, I don't stay down for a week, I'm down for a few hours, then up for maybe an hour, then down again.Oh no, I sstayed on topic... and in my own thread!! I disgust myself!

Yea, now it's out turn to get off topic lol (as we did with the avatar stuff) I'm keeping my avatar the same for prolly forever....just so the new people and the people whove been here for awhile will know who it is...but i hope u get to feeling better soon!

What kinda hijacking is that? You were going off topic and everything was good, but then you went straight back! Come on! You can do better than that!

I think bob is experiencing something similar to me. We have done a lot for being so young. I know that I am continually dissapointed with all of the people I am there for and all the good things I do...Even at work, I take the intiative to do things and I get some gratitude but that is all I ever see. Bob I know how you feel it is this sheet of "boredom" that just gets to you. You can feel good, but it seems to always be over you.

sorry hon but back to the avatar, is there one, if so what is it, and if there is one why can't i see it pout I always saw the family guy one................bugger!!!

No, there is no avatar at the moment. I'm not realy an avatar kinda guy.

Walken: Thats kinda how I feel yeah, except its not just the people around me that are dissapointments, its life in general. Nothing is as god as people make it out yo be. Its all boring. What excites others just doesn't effect me.

i find my life uneventful and boring too, to be honest im just waiting to finish school and get out of here and hopefully do some travelling bcos i just need to get out, i think school is the thing that annoys me most, bcos theres not that many people i can relate to, life starts when you leave school? lol

I thought life ended after school. I don't think I'd make it in the "real world". Too much responsibility.

That's what everyone thinks, but not that many mentally intact people wind up living on the street.

Well, who says I'm mentally intact?

Unless you're really crazy and a really good BSer, I don't think it'll be undoable. You seem pretty nomal. Just get a job, place to live, etc....one step at a time. Then it's forty years of metro, boulot, dodo, as the French say. Or at least that's what the ones who work say.

to be honest i would rather be in the real life rather than the sheltered narrowminded school i go to

My school is full of people that have absolutely nothing in common with me (apart from going to the same school as me) and are complete dicks to me. But I'd still rather stay in school, its so much more relaxing than the outside world, even though its not supposed to be. I do nothing in school all day, the teachers all think I'm a waste of time and potential. I just can't bring myself to caring though.

Just to add to that post, I found out today that my report has been sent out and I am nearly failing everything. All my effort grades are at their lowest and my parents will be called tomorrow to come in for a meeting. I think that maybe I should tell someone that something is wrong, I might get off the hook but I don't want anyone to know, especially my parents. I always feel like telling people it would just be attention seeking.

I always feel like telling people it would just be attention seeking. You wouldn't think that if you broke your nose. This case is no different. Something is wrong. It could be depression...or not. You're wasting time by not seeking help. Go do it!

And how would I do it? "Hey, mom, dad. Ya know how I'm fucking up my grades and my future, yah its cause I'm depressed." I have a teacher who I have to talk to, she is my Academic Advisor. I get on pretty well with her and she is actually worried about me, or so she says. But I don't think I could tell her either.

Mom and Dad: "What's going on? You're not a moron. What's with these grades? And why aren't you putting any effort into school?"

Bob: "???????"

What exactly do you say? Depression isn't where it was 50 years ago, where no one talked about it, and people made believe it didn't exist. Do you think your parents would have that little understanding?

Isn't there anyoine you can talk to about how you feel?

Actually its more like:"Bob, get off your fucking arse and start working."Today I had a meeting with the Guidence counsellor about college applications and stuff. It was brought to her attention about my grades and serious lack of effort. She asked a few questions like what do I care about and it was odd to not be able to give her a truthful answer. She told me that I'm gonna meet her again next week and I have to have a list of 5 things that I care about and what I'm good at and stuff. I think she might be considering that I may have some problem. Throughout the meeting I had the urge to tell her what I think it is, but I just sat there listening to her talk, nodding and saying "yeah" at random intervals.