OK so here's the thing.
I am in a committed relationship with a wonderful man. There are lots of great people in my life. But... gosh... I have never done anything WILD... my ID has never come out to play. I've never had a one night stand, or kissed a man other than my long distance fiance, or done anything even remotely rebellious. I'm a little goody two shoes and I'm so RESTLESS! There's a acquaintance of mine... I guess maybe I have a little crush on him but I just want to FCUK him really, really hard and get all this pent up frustration out of my body. I've had sex maybe once a year since I started a few years ago (no joke). I'm fixated on this guy like he's the answer, but I think really I just need to get all of this sexual ENERGY out of my body.
Before you start telling me to dump my fiance, I'm deeply in love with this person. He's wonderful... I just can't be with him right now. We are worlds apart and I'm just so lonely over here. When I make love to him I practically injure him, I'm so excited. I have a fairly normal sex drive, maybe slightly higher than normal since I have repressed so much of it over the years (strict religion). But lately when I'm with him I can't get this other person out of my MIND. This guy is almost like the personification of my ID - that being that never came out of me and to do some damage. I'm definitely not in love with my acquaintance... I just need to... UGH, I don't know.
I would ask if it would be so WRONG to just sleep with this person and get it over with... but he doesn't know I'm alive anyway. He probably thinks I'm a conservative nerd, if he thinks of me at all. But I just want to get all this SEXUAL FRUSTRATION out of myself! Any ideas? UGHHH! :blush: