long time since I was here, lol, don't try and find my old posts they're just depressing.
Anywho so I stopped eating two days ago. I can't decide why. There are a couple of possible reasons. Pick your favourite.
#1) Attention seeking. Though I'm not telling anyone and I have no intention of doing so. hmm.
#2) I've recently took a highly inactive job where I sit down all day. I normally eat loads but I noticed I was gaining weight and I've become particularly obsessed with the fat content of what I have been eating. I'm probably about 14st (200lbs) and I've got a belly. a large one. second reason, to lose weight.
#3) I'm convinced if I'm about 11st I'll be a happier person. Thinner, ergo more attractive. hmm.
What I can't decide is why I have really started this. I bought food yesterday morning and haven't eaten it. Its begging me to but I don't want to eat it. The hunger pangs have sort of subsided a bit now. I've felt hungry before and eaten but now I've not eaten and I don't really feel that hungry.
I'm supposed to be going out on sunday for a meal. To my favourite restaurant. Steak and ale pie yum yum. Am I looking forward to it? Am I bollocks. I'm dreading it. If I could think of a way to get out of it I would.
I know what I'm doing, I don't think I've got an eating disorder or anything. Not eating and making myself sick. I don't have a history of this sort of thing. It just occured to me on Tuesday morning and I haven't eaten anything since Monday night. I've been drinking coffee and milk - 3.6g fat in every 100ml - I consider it terrible I know that and thats it. No one has said anything yet and there is only one person who I think might realise, and thats my housemate.
Opinions, questions, comments all welcome.
Welcome back, BradUk2003. You say you don't have an eating disorder, but this sounds like a sort of beginning anorexia to me. There's nothing wrong with wanting to lose a bit of weight, but to do that effectively you don't want to stop eating, but instead change to a healthy lower-calorie diet that you can continue indefinitely. What seems to be happening is that you have developed an obsession. Have you had other obsessions before? Are you on any treatment?
no obsessions and no treatment. I wouldnt go so far as to say it was anorexia, maybe thats just my denial though. And its not a particularly male thing to admit to. And its only two days.
I know that if I eat I'll just go back to my eating habits. eating crap all the time.
Not eating as a form of fasting is ok, but not eating to lose weight has an opposite effect at first. Your body thinks youre experiencing famine so it starts consuming your muscle mass first, leaving the fat (your belly) behind in case of an emergency. Not a good way to go about it, that's why anorexics don't just look skinny, they look like walking death.
Ok so after reading what had been posted here I bit the bullet and forced myself to eat something. As soon as I was done I felt rather unwell and baulked a few times. I wasn't intentionally trying to be sick. Then I felt dirty all over. lol.
I've regretted making this post a little bit, because I dont think the possible reasons I listed are reasons at all. I dont think its a decision I've consciously made. I love eating. I want to eat but every time I think about it, I can't explain whats stopping me.
I'm surprised at how not hungry I feel. The hunger pangs really are non existent.
I dont know what to do now.
Telling people, including my doctor, is out of the question.
Why is it out of the question? Would you go to your doctor if your temperature wasn't as it should be? Why not see a doctor if your eating isn't as it should be?
You HAVE to eat. You sound like a intelligent, educated individual, you know that the human needs food. It's been two days, the body can survive on reserves, but soon you're going to feel a whole lot worse.
Fatigue, depression, insomnia, and generally becoming an unpleasant person to be around are some symptoms of starving yourself.
What you are describing sounds exactly like anorexia. If you want to know the fat content of a particular product, don't ask nutritionist, or a dietitian, ask someone suffering from anorexia. It's been two days, stop it NOW before it's too late. I cannot stress this enough.
You're obviously determined to lose weight, and that's good, so why not do it the healthy way? No need to exercise if you don't want. Just prepare good, healthy meals and eat those.
Starve yourself of the junk food, fight those hunger pains, but in the mean time eat some lean meat, fish, some wholegrain products, fresh fruit and veg. Would you still feel guilty after eating a bowl of rolled oats, a LEAN beef and salad roll, or fish and veggies?
Originally Posted By: kmrobinsWould you still feel guilty after eating a bowl of rolled oats, a LEAN beef and salad roll, or fish and veggies?
My that sounds delicious. What is a lean beef and sald roll?
a few years ago back around 2000 I got sick anytime I even thought of eating, 12 days with no food, the hunger pains get to be less and less each day as your stomach shrinks up.
Now I was sick, mostly stupid, depressed and fucked up over a girl that dumped me, the only one that ever dumped me. In the end Im glad shes gone, if not Id never of met or been with the one im with now.
Your situation is only slightly different, your reasons for not eating are different, the end result is the same. I never decided to starve myself to death, not consciously, at least, food made me sick to even smell, the thought of putting it in my mouth made my stomach turn. How I got over it? I have no fucking clue, I went for walk in the woods alone for a weekend and smoked alot of weed, so long as i was high I could eat, that started me eating, I kept on eating after that.
You have a problem, my fix may not do shit for you, but I suggest you look into doing something to get back to normal, if its weight, then eat better and exercise, maybe that would keep ya from feeling guilty and making you sick.
Let's agree to respect each others views, no matter how wrong yours may be.
Originally Posted By: BradUk2003It just occured to me on Tuesday morning and I haven't eaten anything since Monday night.
holy crap!!! thats like ... 12 hours! how the crap did you survive?
sorry, didnt mean to be mean but seriously, reread that and tell me if that just doesn't sound dumb.