I'm broken. I have a beautiful girlfriend, tons of friends who would do anything for me, and supportive parents. Everything is the way i hoped it would be. Why am i so alone? Why am I so anxious? Why am i so angry?
I don't know why, but the important thing is that you feel that way. Depression and anxiety and anger are less trouble when there is a good reason for them, because you there is a cause, and people understand, and you can try to get rid of the cause and feel better. But when there is no obvious cause, then they are trouble.
How long have you been feeling like this?
Well I'm 17 I've been feeling like this for a couple months now. it used to go in and out but now it's more constant. I was diagnosed with anxiety and depression when i was 13 years old and they put me on prozac and it didn't help so i stopped taking it on my own and it started to go away as a grew older. But now i think it's coming back. There is no real reason for it now though. I don't drink or do any drugs. and Metal music
I use some pot here and there, and I listen to metal, speed metal death metal, punk (real punk not the shit that passes for it today, but some of that too, old country, pop,oldies, some techno, bluegrass, and even as an athiest I enjoy some christian shit, classical, jazz, I can find somethign I like in all music, aside from rap, I hate that shit, but even at that I like some of eminems shit.
Ill readily agree that drugs can lead to depression and the feelings he describes but I cant get it into my head that music does.
When I gdo get depressed though I really like to spark up a fatty and sip some vodka on ice with some classical cranked. I am especially fond of the 2nd movment, 5th symphony of loudwig van.
I dont busta nut like little alex, but it does feel good to do.
Let's agree to respect each others views, no matter how wrong yours may be.
I can get a little depressed sometimes, so there are some things I do like:
Surround myself with friends
Become hyperactive by drinking sugar/caffeine
Listen to fast/upbeat music. Thunderbirds Are Now, for example
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Once the high you get from those things leaves, you're going to crash--hard.
<span style="color: red">~~Don't make someone a priority when you're only an option~~</span>
exactly, most days when i drink and energy drink or cup of coffee to stay awake, im buzzing like a bee and then i feel like a tired old piece of shit shortly after. Relying on caffiene to keep your mood up is like relying on a pyromaniac to stay out of the fireworks factory.
...i need to stop making crappy jokes......
The fact that you can find no apparent cause for your depression is possibly a key factor. It could mean that your depression (as you seem to think) is not situational but is in fact a real clinical depression.
Taking yourself off meds is never a good idea, although I have to admit I've done it. Even if you decide you don't want to take them any more, the Dr. may want to bring you off slowly.
I would strongly suggest that, besides doing the active things others have suggested, you visit a therapist or psychologist. They may determine that you need to see a Dr. to possibly get more meds, or the may determine that you can recover through therapy and lifestyle choices.
Good luck to you. Keep us posted.
Screw the whales, save the subjunctive!
I'd rather not self medicate with drugs and alchahol. Things have gotten a little better i guess. I only feel alone at night but I'm still always very anxious. My palms are almost always clamy and my armpits sweat like crazy. Especially when theres more than 15 people around me. So like every class i have. And it makes me more self concious because I'm afraid people will see me freaking out and be creeped out by me. I've gone to a theropist before but I'm always too afraid to tell them my problems and thoughts because they'll put me on drugs.
Sounds like you're dealing with more anxiety than depression.
Don't be afraid of therapy because you're leery of medicine. There are a lot of therapists out there, like myself, who are not big fans of psychotropic medicine and think they are overused.
Here's some info that might help you and put your mind at ease (and encourage you to get the help you want!): Only MD's and Psychiatrists can prescribe medication. If you see a counselor/therapist/psychologist that is not a psychiatrist, they won't be putting you on meds cause they can't. Look for someone with one of these credentials: CSW, LCSW, LPCC, MFT, or that sort of thing.
Please don't let your fear of meds stop you. If you are dealing daily with anxiety, there are many many many good therapists/counselors who can help you in may ways that don't involve meds. Meds should always be the last resort.
Screw the whales, save the subjunctive!