Okay this is pretty embarrassing even for me to reveal anonymously over the internet but I'm absolutely terrified about last night. I've been in Phuket, Thailand for the past few days and last night I hooked up with some chick. Or so I thought. I had no idea she was a whore, let alone a dude, so when she took me up to her room and asked for the money I was so horny, drunk, and stupid that I willingly gave it to her. We were dry humping for awhile and then I found out. It didn't really matter since I was so god damned horny and if I remember correctly, she was hotter than most of the girls I've been with. The 15 minutes I lasted was probably the hottest experience I've had in my life.
However, the last 24 hours have been filled with extreme anxiety and terror. Although I was pretty drunk I have no trouble remembering last night. She gave me head for awhile without a condom and then we made out for a few seconds. I remember brushing my teeth earlier that day with a little bit of stinging so I may have had a small cut in my mouth. I don't know if she had a cut or any sores in her mouth so I guess I'll just have to pray she didn't. Can HIV be contracted by saliva? If so I think I'm fucked. After head (I didnt not go down on her) we jacked each other off for a minute and then got busy. My dick may have rubbed against her asscheeks for a split second before I got the condom on but I'm not too worried about that. She was very clean, I'm sure. What I am worried about is when I finished and pulled out, the condom came off as I slid out of her ass. It came about halfway off my dick so I don't think the tip had direct contract with her ass, but the lower half of my penis probably did. The good news is the condom had all my nutt in it so it didn't break or anything. It was kind of funny because after I nutted, I came to my senses and got the fuck out of there. I couldn't help spitting and shaking in disgust on my walk back to the hotel. I scrubbed myself for like an hour and stayed awake the whole night.
Now I know you cant give me direct answers but do you think there is a high chance I contracted HIV? I know it doesn't help my case but I feel perfectly fine and all my appendages are well. The same cannot be said about my head; its only been 24 hours and I'm paranoid, cannot sleep, and will probably remain this way for the rest of my vacation. Not to mention what the fuck this means about my sexual orientation: I've never felt lust this strong with a female but I have always been emotionally and physically attracted to them. I've never felt any sort of attraction toward males. However, when I think about a chick with a dick it sends a rush of blood to the head. She (he) was everything a female was except with something extra. Whatever.
The first thing I'm going to do when I get home is get tested. I don't think I could live with myself if I got HIV; my dreams would be crushed and my family's expectations would turn into resentment. This early on my life is coming together: I've been accepted into a great university, have a potential girlfriend waiting back home, and I'm finally living up to my parents expectations. This one slip could be truly devastating.
I guess I'm just venting and looking for some advice/reassurance.