Suicide Mix

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I dunno, because I am genuinely fascinated with the thought of my own death. Honestly, sometimes I picture what it would be like it I shot myself in the head, I try to imagine all the police and EMS and how they'd come in and take pictures and scoop up my brains. I even think about my funeral and who would come to it. Actually... I think I want to have my ashes shot into space.

I never understood what people think is so hard abut gettig a girl. Its hard to find a good on and harer to find a good one that doesnt think your a piece of shit, but to find a gir that puts out I never had to go further then the nearest wal mart or bar or grocery store. I didnt lie to them to fuck them, I told them they couldnt have me I wasnt a bf just a fuck, I ha n trouble getting what I wanted.trashy girls are everywhere and plenty of Them want just sex and no relationship. its all in what line of shit you talkf and how you come off.I had an easier time getting pussy then I did getting a loan for a car. I think the you cant have me for more then a sexual encounter or 5 was the greatest part of it, worked like a pick up line, fall of a sudden I was a challenge and most of htem ended up in love wanting a relationship even thugh I told them from go it was nothing more then physical fun for a night every here and there.

Umm maybe think about depression medication? Or go out and meet some people so you dont have to think about your own death all day...

dies laughing he doesnt need to be medicated. atleast not for depression.

i am on medication, cannabis sativa perscribed by doctor mother nature. smoke blunt twice day or as needed, unlimited refills.

Wow, I don't understand why you haven't fucked anyone yet, with an exciting life like yours.

First off having a GF is not the main goal in life... girls will come and go. It's called live for yourself... you're young for heaven sakes!And secondly, ever thought the reason you cannot get a girl is because of your attitude that they are all bitches? Girls love a guy with a good attitude and personality. Sometimes you have to look at YOURSELF for the reasons instead of blaming all females as bitches.

Choose something thats like 1000X better them women.... Music:)

funny, I got into music to get girls. I have a guitar not ten feet from me, Id rather stick my dick in my woman then in my guitar.

I dunno, it might be fun. Just stick your dick between the strings and pluck/strum away.

do you have a guitar bobbo?ever taken a close look at one ?at those strings ?themetal ones that look like ring stacked on each other for the entire length, and the nylon ones, ooooooooh pluck one of them and it would be a castartion with that tightened little batard against my special skin.you can fuck a guitar if you like, just make sure its not mine

Well, I was thinking that it would really be for the bondage, S&M folks. They love that castration stuff!

i didnt realize this guy was actually planning on suicide.look man, the universe does not hate you. everyone is responsible for themselves, and nobody goes through life without misfortune, but honestly where would you rather be; a morgue, or a better life in a few years looking back on this and thinking how silly it was? just pull yourself together and youll be okay. dont lose hope.

agreed penis is staying away from my steel strings...the high especially...that one on a cold morning can cut flesh..

You stick your dick into your guitar strings? well i hope you play an acousting one cause u cant stick it in a solid body electric or 12 string lol. Do you really use the guitar to get girls!? does it work?

Well, you know what John Mellencamp says (or was it John Cougar...or John Cougar Mellencamp...):"Forget all about that macho sh*t and learn how to play guitar."

Yeah actually the thought of being dead really makes me happy, I really don't care if I live or die, I really don't see any purpose ofr me to be alive. I never made any impact on anyone, no one really considers me an important part of their life and they never will. I think I'll go in a car crash if I die, I almost got in a head on collision today by passing a slow ass driver on a two lane road up a hill where no passing is allowed, I floored it to 80 and couldn't see the oncoming SUV, missed it by 10 feet maybe. I think I want us all to have died instead.

So you'd want to take some who could be happen with their life down with you? Pretty damned selfish and sick.And dude your YOUNG! having an inpact on someones life doesn't always happen so soon. It can take many years for something like that to happen. I am 26 years old and not sure if I impacted anyones life, but I am not going to let that consume my will to live.

Eddie, I can't imagine that you haven't had a positive impact on someone's life.White, ol buddy ol pal...a lot of times you don't know how you've impacted someone until years down the road. Maybe you actually have. I don't find that too hard to believe.

Well thanks Damien. :grin:

I have a strong feeling you are going to impact a lot of people, and most importantly the young people. Your positive attitude and ambition always puts me on aw. If anything I can say you put an impact on my life that gave me hope that there are more people like you out there. You're going to make an awesome therapist, and the kids are going to be lucky to have you.

And White, I was actually thinking more about you today. Part of me wants to say you do all this talk for nothing more than attention. Perhaps you are just a very lonely person who needs someone to talk to because you don't get the attention you need from family and friends, and for that I feel for you. Upsets me to see people crave attention, even if it's negative attention.

But there's another part of me that actually fears that you do want death. It's sad to hear someone talk about wanting death because they think their life doesn't matter. I think people don't understand you cannot expect others to make your life for you. If you want something in life it's up to yourself to achieve it. It's up to every individual to matter to themselves and to love themselves not matter what the outside word says about them because you only get one you, so love who you are.

Enough sappy moment, just something I think that needed to be said.