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Well, I've been feeling worthless lately, and well, here's the best way I can explain it..In school, it seems I'm not allowed to be happy, though I've been trying... In English class, for example, I tried to talk in the class discussion and a few kids started laughing about me, I knew it was me, as they stopped when I stopped talking...And then, I know I'm bi, and I know there's nothing wrong with that... I just live in constant fear that someone will find out, and that the few kids who are nice to me at schoolo will turn on me...I think I'm worthless because I'm not allowed to be me...

Well, does anyone at school know your bi? If they know they could be laughing at that, but even if they don't know, it pust alot of stress on you for you yourself ro know your bi and afraid they'll find out.....one thing i'de never do is stop being someones freinds cuz they bi, ive had bi gf's and guys who i can almost gaurentee they're bi, but i could care less, they are my freinds who i liek to be around no matter what

Hey there.High School can be rough for a lot of people. You have to keep in mind some kids pick on other kids to boost their self esteeme. Of course this is not correct but you have to remember everyone is going through the same feelings you are.As for you being bi, you're right there is nothing wrong with that. It's sad that people cannot mind their own business, but remember the age and mentality of the people you are dealing with. At that age everyone thinks everyone eles business is their business. While in school, I agree with keeping your sexuality to yourself, but that doesn't mean you cannot be yourself. I know I was gay my senior year of High School (well I knew before that but was in denial about it) And I was still myself. You just have to find ways to be yourself because the last thing you want to be is someone you are not.When these kids start laughing at you, you have to keep the smile on your face and act like they are invisible. I know easier said than done, I've been there. But once you do that they will ignore you as well. People do things for a reaction, the react is what feeds them to do it again and again, but once a reaction isn't given they will look for someone else to give them the reaction they desire.I hope I was some help. Just remember you cannot let other people control how you feel, let yourself be in control of that.

wow NtroducingMyself u r a good source of advice ur always there for seriouis topics and stuff im inspired acctually u could be a god role model and i bet u r and for averagekid all i can say is listen to NtroducingMyself (im not much help,eh?)

hey just keep your head up and say "screw it!" about all the other people. i know its really hard for stuff like that not to get to you but some times you just gotta flip em' off with both your fingers and get in trouble with the teacher, its worth it trust me!

In reply to:you just gotta flip em' off with both your fingers and get in trouble with the teacher, its worth it trust me! If he does that then he's really just letting them get to him to the point where it gets him in trouble. It's not going to help him and it may even amuse them. If you're going to take that kind of an attitude then just stand above them by being confident, laughing things off, and not showing that you let them hurt you. Don't give them something to get pleasure from. I've been there - your situation describes me perfectly 3 years ago. It was the worst year of my life, I was made fun of, degraded, felt worthless and unable to do anything right, and I was horribly depressed. Don't be like me and let them get to you. You need to not show irritation when they make fun of you. Completely ignore them or try to be more confident and sociable (I'd suggest the second) and things will get better. For me, it didn't get better until I went from gr.9 to 10 (went from j. high to high school) because I didn't deal with things properly and I let my frustration control me.I know it's hard, but things will get better. That will happen sooner if you just try to do what I told you. It's taken me up until now to learn that but things are looking up. You can do it

yeah sorry should of thought of it.

its alright nobody in this world is worthless, there are many kids who are bi.

Thanks guys...I dunno, I'm just too scared to tell my parents...

Is there a reason that you have to tell your parents right now? I assume your refering to telling them your bi. I've been through this with a guy who was gay, fifteen or sixteen and felt he had to tell his parents, who weren't exactly gay friendly.I don't know what your situation is, so as always, I'm assuming alot. Having said that I think it might be best that you wait till you've fully matured, passed the point of adolescent sexual confusion, and have the ability to support yourself, just in case. However, that is your decision alone, and remember that I am just offering my opinion.

yeh i agree with oldfolksi consider myself bi, although not completely sure, ive never thought about telling my parenst, at least not yet...maybe if i ever get in a relationship with a girl i would tell them.but im still young, i dont whats going on in my head lol, so i would say just see how you feel, until your out of that nasty am i or ant i? stage of confusion and then maybe think of telling them

I always used to pick on people back when they picked on me. I remember the best one was when some fucking ass hole stole a dollar from me. I didnt care it was mainly the principle of it. So i told him I would trade him porno for the dollar back (he was a lil pervy guy so i know it would work) and said i would print it off my pc at my house so this fucker came home with me and i told him to give me the dollar and I would get the porn for him. As soon as he gave it to me I called him a cocksucker and told him to get the fuck out my house and he had to walk 15 blocks home. Ha ha ha... that kids now dead now so I probrably shouldnt be talking shit unless I want a good haunting.Also when people used to make fun of me I would do stuff like everytime I saw them call them names or throw stuff in their face before they even said anything to me. That soon put them in their place. Some girl made fun of me once for no reason when I was walking home and everyday from then on I made the effort to make fun of her everytime I saw her and also got lots of people to join in. Yes revenge is sweet and yes its a childish thing to do, but I cant stand people fucking with me for no reason. But sometimes its all some people understand. You dont wanna retaliate to them because that feeds them, but if you start picking on them and making them look stupid they soon stop. Another great time was when some kid made fun of me a few times and he was sleeping on his desk so I walked past with a textbook and smashed him on the top of the head as hard as I could infront of the whole class and everyone laughed at him. I wouldnt recomend any of this as it can get you in troubble in many ways, but sometimes retaliation can be the only way. Doing this never made me popular and i never had very many friends until I left Highschool but all the fuckers left me alone when I was there at least.

I missed the part about you being bi when I was comparing my situation to yours. Other than that I was in pretty much the same thing as you. It's unfortunate that some people will treat you differently in knowing that. Especially in junior high, it seems to be a really negative thing. Where I am most people in high school don't really care. We even have an extracurricular group at our school for people who are gay, lesbian, bi, straight and in support of sexual rights, etc. Hopefully things will get better with that and you won't worry so much; it's not that big a deal and it's not like you can control it.

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that kids now dead now

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Wow, he took the joke pretty hard.

lol

I know how you feel about not wanting to take any shit. Unfortunately I don't have the will to do that to other people. Maybe it's a good thing in some ways. People see me as a relatively passive guy. Sometimes I feel so weak and used, or at least I used to. I'd rather be someone who people look up to as being a nice guy even if it means not fighting back like that, but I'm not even that. I'd rather be a nice guy though, as much as I hate to be fucked with by assholes who have no respect for others; the exception being if someone started a fight with me but that's different.Fortunately for me that was mostly in junior high.

Ya I dont have the problem of those ass holes anymore cus I am in college. I'm not normaly a nasty person but sometimes I make myself as not to be taken advantage of. I dont think it makes me a bad person as I am nice to my freinds and people who are nice to me just if somones mean to me for no reason I give them hell because I figure they deserve it so take my anger out on them.

Yeah, school can be so rough sometimes. Children always critisize almost everyone and some of them really don't care if they will harm you with their insults. These kids are still mean and immature and they're trying to develop their egos against yours (as NtroducingMyself very well said).But, do not blame them. You're still young. You must never forget, that you actually do not need their opinions nor their insults. If they are laughing at you when you talk, keep talking! You should never shut up because someone else forces you to do it. You don't care what other people say, because no one is better or worse than you. First you have to listen to yourself and then what your friends/family say. Then, you'll be happy and no one will ever get you down I won't lie to you. If the kids in your school find out you're bi, then you'll face some troubles. Maybe some good kids will turn on you, indeed. But this will prove to you that these kids were no good at all from the beginning.I personally don't believe in revenge. If someone picks on you, do not take it seriously. You could just ignore it or make fun of it. Let him keep picking on you and make him discover that you're not affected at all . But first, you have to develop your self esteem by yourself.

i feel the same way alot of the time, but thats what i listen to music for...ive constantly been getting shit from pretty much EVERYONE who has something to do with my life, about ANYTHING, the music i listen to, my looks, what i do at home, whatever they think of, they give me shit about it...I dont even know who my "friends" are anymore, as every one of them seems to have said something behind my back, or have also been chipping me out...at first i didnt really worry about it, then it started to get worse, and worse until now, when its jst at this constant level of complete FUCKING MADNESS!!!!although there are a few people i can turn to for help if everything goes to shit... probably about 4... and theyre 200km away....but, music!