Cutting

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I've been cutting since I was 12I only cut now when I'm angryI used to cut when I was bored. My arms used to look awful because it was an everyday thingSo now I basically cut 4 maybe 5 times a weekIt makes my anger go away and I feel alot betterI don't think I could ever quit tho I mean its been a part of me for a long time and its kinda who I am I guess

yeah. it is addicting in a sense.i only truly did it because i was just taking my anger and shit out on myself. which..isnt healthy. but yeah.

I have never cut myself, just something that doesnt appeal to me even when I wish my life would end.

everyone to their own i guess some people find cutting comforting others find it rather useless

Up until two years ago, I was a cutter. Part of it, at least for me, was that I wanted to feel the pain that was inside me on the outside, because it was so much easier to bear there. Secondly, it was partially the blood..It reminded me of tears and helped me to let go of the supressed tears I had. Thirdly, it's somewhat hypnotic..And once you've done it once..It tends to be re-occuring. Lastly, for myself I was also suicidal so part of me really wanted to die but could never quite go through with it. Even now days, even though I have not cut myself in two years...When I am upset it takes alot of self-restraint not to reach for a knife...It was a sense of comfort..In a really messed up way

i really understand what u mean about feeling internal pain on the outside and yes it is a lot easier to deal with because on the outside you seem to heal faster than an internal ache that takes a long time to correcti used to really see the blood as all the bad things in me coming out ... but that maybe just me...yes when i am upset i also have to really concentrate on not going back as i really want to kick the habit as i know their are better ways to deal with stress and pain than this... mmhm yes it can be incredibly comforting and i see what you mean about it being not so orthodox if thats the right word for it .. i really see where you are coming from :/

Yep, It did feel like the blood was all the bad stuff coming out, I can totally see that point of view.